Art and Sweetcorn
May 7, 2011
In September 2009 my younger daughter Alina came to my studio for an hour or two. That visit led to an illustrated short story “Art and Sweetcorn”.
Here it is:
Sweetcorn is hot this season.
On the way to the studio I made a detour to the Farmers’ Market, but going home in the evening forgot the bag with the goodies behind.
– Alina, I’ve got sweetcorn in the studio. Would you like to come with me to get it?
– Ye-ye-yeah!
Off we go.
Out of the door, turn left…
– Mummy, can we take the shortcut?
– That way takes longer, Alina!
– I don’t care!
– OK.
carry on down The Mint;
up through the inn car park;
right down the cobbled street;
past the corner house with the pigeons;
take the passage on the left;
past the lamp-post;
into the court yard.
Some days my girls like to come to my studio, some days they don’t. Depends.
– Alina, would you like to cook the corn here, or would you rather go home?
– I don’t mind, mummy, I can eat it cold.
– Yes, but it’s not cooked: you have to cook it first.
– Aw… (disappointment strength 8/10). Can I do painting while it’s being cooked then?
– You may.
– I want to do Art.
Sweetcorn’s in the pan.
– Which paint would you like, this (oils) or this (acrylics)?
– I want this one (acrylics).
– There you go.
– Can I have those little rolling things as well?
– Yes, sure. And there is your paper.
She is all settled, painting on the floor;
I am at the table, drawing her.
We are busy doing Art.
Silence.
Sweet aroma slowly fills the room…
– Mummy?
– Hm?
– Is the sweetcorn ready yet?
(glance at the clock)
– No, not yet. Another 10 minutes or so…
– Aw…
5 minutes later:
– Mummy!
– Hm?
– I think the sweetcorn is ready now.
– Uh-ehm…
– Come on, then!
– Okay! – I put the pencil down and get the sweetcorn.
It is hot. I put one cob under the running cold water. Alina comes to the sink to wash her hands.
– Mummy?
– Yes?
– I painted the difference between the Sea and the Soil.
– Oh, cool!
Hands clean, she is content.
– Can I eat my sweetcorn now?
– Ah-a.
I give her the cooled-down cob, and place the plate with more of them on the arm of the chair. She climbs into the chair. Satisfaction 10/10. Life is good.
– Alina, are you going to paint any more?
– Nah-ah.
– In that case, you need to tidy up.
– Arrgghh, Godddd!
Marina Kim
Autumn, 2009
Looking for your own face
May 5, 2011
Poetry Chaikhana blog (one of my perennial favourites) sent today a post with a poem by Farid ud-Din Attar. It says:
“You can never see your own face,
only a reflection, not the face itself.”
…and I had a little recognition moment – “That’s what it is!”
That’s probably the reason I am obsessed with portraits. They are also reflections. And so are we for each other. When we face each other in conversation, or conflict, or play, or any other interaction – we become reflections of each other and for each other to see.
Is that why it is always an effort to be with other people (well, it is for me), because one turns one’s gaze outwards and allows one’s own “face” to assume the reflected images of what one can see rather than being an authentic self? Is it even possible to stay authentic in interaction with other people?
And is my making portraits of myself and others is a superficial (and, yes, futile) attempt to see myself, while actually, it hardly shows even a little aspect of the other? Arrrrh!..
Peter Spencer
May 4, 2011
Peter Spencer came with two boxes of eggs.
Said that his “girls” were broody, which isn’t good. At this kind of weather (spring, nice) they want to nest, become pecky and don’t eat properly. No good.
One led to another, I mentioned the dreaded Japanese knot weed in our neighbour’s garden. Peter asked to have a look, and while there offered to string the corner of the garden full of nettle.
We talked about art and life. I asked him, if this life style he has now is what he ultimately wants? (I seem to be asking everyone awkward questions these days)
Being me.
May 3, 2011
Reminding myself of my one and only job -being me. Sometimes it means spending days on my own, in silence, in idleness, just staying in synch with God – the way I used to, when I was a child.
Mezzotint and more… Margaret van Patten
April 24, 2011
While looking for artists working in mezzotint, found an amazing art by an artist Margaret van Patten.
Paper Thin
photo by Harold Hutchinson
Etching with mezzotint
The image is rich in content – messages from conscious and subconscious levels merge in an emotional and elegant manner. The technical diversity the artist applied to creating the plate makes for a complex yet un-crowded image.
Love her work!
Uneasy feelings and what to do with them
April 17, 2011
I had this uneasy feeling again and decided to do something constructive about it.
Step one: Identify what caused that feeling.
To help with that, think back to the time when it first appeared. Then, think what exactly caused it – someone’s remark, or action, or some event. Then, think what it made you feel like, or what negative thought that thing evoked in you.
Step two: Breath deliberately.
Concentrate on getting your body, especially brain, oxygenated (but not hyperventilated!)
Step three: Take action.
Whatever that event or thought was, take action to minimise the impact of it. If it’s an event with possible negative consequences, think how you can reduce the harm and take steps to do it. If it is a thought which caused you grief, analyse what makes it negative and think how you can turn it into a positive thought.
Step four: Let go.
Now, decide whether the action you took is all you can do at the moment. If the answer is positive, let go of the whole thing and go do something else. If the answer is negative, repeat steps 1-4.
Q: How do I know if what I did is enough?
A: You’ll know because the uneasy feeling is gone.
It worked!
Just thought that sometimes people live with those uneasy feelings lingering for years!..
Meaning of a dream revealed
April 14, 2011
All of a sudden a meaning of a dream I had a while ago dawned on me.
In a dream, I am being one of the two high-ranking officers, who are being publicly executed for the atrocities of the war. The mob is angry. We are guilty.
My companion is higher in rank than me and he is viewed as the main villain. He is the first to be executed. The method is rather morbid. One’s arms and legs chopped off at the knees and elbows, after which one has to move along the parallel bars (like in gymnastics) on the stumps of his arms.
I am witnessing my comrade as he is about to be executed. His face shows no fear, no resentment, no repentance, just pure anger and defiance. I admire his courage, as he, with his limbs severed, moves swiftly along the parallel bars. The expression of his face is very strong. I admire his strength, and gather my own strength now, as I am to go through the same ordeal. His example gives me encouragement that I also can do that, although I feel much weaker…
And so, suddenly I see what that dream means. It reflects to me, that I view myself as the one not belonging to the masses, yet not the leader. I am hesitant to act, fearing pain and danger, and need to see that someone has done that same thing before me. I need a reassurance that I can do it, whatever that is.
It’s funny how some dreams stay in your consciousness for a while and reveal their meaning to you layer by layer.
Dreams and symbolism.
April 6, 2011
I had a curious dream
I was on a quest. I had to find a secret/treasure/scroll. Some sort of token/object and it was important.
It was a bit like a coputer game because on my way there, at places, I felt like I was gliding through the air. The way you do when you play a computer game. On my quest, I went through varied terraine. A voice, or a thought was guiding me. Like this:
– You will have to go through a forest, –
And I’d be gliding through some woody area
– You’ll come out of the forest and see an open field, –
And I’d be in the open
– You’ll need to cross the river… etc
The trip part (and the rest, actually) was happening very quickly. And there I was, in the pergola alley covered with vine and The Secret was placed in a sort of altar at the end of it. I flue to it. It was here within my reach, somewhere at the eye level or a little higher. At the same time, a person appeared a few paces behind me on the path. He was a very-very old man with long white beard and white clothes, rather bend over. He said, or expressed in some way, that he was the keeper of The Secret, and he was waiting for a long time for someone to come and get it. He was long due to die, but couldn’t because of The Secret. And now, that I am here, he can finally die. And the objetct/secret thing floated down into my hand. And he died.
And I became the keeper of the secret. A feeling of burden poped into my mind. Having to grow old, like that
old man, being attached to that object, iprisonned really, all alone. Then it faded. I became two little children, (or perhaps I got two little children as well as me, because the perseption of me as such became faded or more of an observer, not the action man. By the way, I am almost always more of a male than a female in my dreams), THEY were the keepers now. They play, and they compete, and argue, and play, and compete, possibly over the ownership of The secret. And that’s the end of the dream.
The emotional state of the dream at the end of it is of lively peace and dynamic serenity… As if life is good -challenging enough, comfortable enough, moving on in the right direction.
About me. The old story
March 16, 2011
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Sincerely thank you for reading!